my testimony

I have grown up always aware and in full knowledge of what Jesus did for me. And from a very young age I have been very sensitive To doing what God wants me to do and nothing else. I had a lot of Godly examples in my life especially early on, and even though we went through a time of trying different religions, I still look up to several different people from that time of my life that really had a heart for God. 

My testimony is more or less coming to the beliefs I have now, which was a long and winding road! When I was about 6 we moved from NE to MO for a church our friend said we needed to see. This church was a place where a lot of ex-amish people congregated and they all hold onto a lot of those same beliefs. Our family went there for a while and it really brought them away from what they had first learned about God, we started dressing (and etc) to make us appear more righteous and although we may not have fully believed everything these churches taught, we still tried to fit in and go along with it. We went to several different churches, most of which we would wear head coverings and vest dresses and never cut our hair and etc. For awhile I think we were just searching for what was truly right, and we kept thinking that we had to "make" ourselves holier to be able to go to heaven. After a long time of going to different churches and a lot of studying things out, to sum it up, we realized that we can't make ourselves righteous, only god can, and that a lot of people who believe in those churches are self righteous. A lot of people have taken the Bible out of context, which is why we were so lost for awhile! But we can find everything the Lord wants us to know if we just truly search out the scriptures.

I have come to understand and believe that Jesus has completely covered us with His blood shed. He has paid for our sins in whole and we can't make ourselves more righteous by covering our hair, or not wearing buttons on our clothes. Only He can make us righteous, only He can make us perfect and whole! And when we put our trust in Him and truly strive to follow His word, those good fruits will come out and show in our life!! I believe the most important thing is the condition of your heart when it comes to living for God, not if you wear skirts or don't cut your hair. Is you heart modest? If so it will come out in your actions, including how you dress! If you are striving to follow Jesus with your whole heart then it is going to show in your life. And that's what I hope people see in me!! 

What do you hope people see in you? What is your testimony?