to miss someone.

i kinda miss summer.

but then again, i miss 
every season of life.
i miss every person i haven't seen 
within three days
much more the ones i haven't seen
in three months; three years.
sometimes i've wondered what it'd be
like to not have that feeling
that feeling that tells you you are missing something.
i've wondered if we didn't have that,
would the agony of someones death be easier?
it's been years
since my grandpa died.
and my aunt and my little sister.
but still i miss them, 
no matter how many years go by.
i fully realize that if we didn't miss,
then we'd take things for granted.
but i don't take things for granted
i cherish moments.
so why must i bear this awful agony?
why must my family grieve the loss 
of so many people? 
we do we have to miss?


i found an answer. 
after thinking about it
the Lord brought it to my 
attention that maybe,
it's to help others bear loss.
because then you can say
'i know how hard it is'
in all truth. 
maybe it's just that then. 
to help others. 
to sympathize wholeheartedly with someone for 
a loss or a happening or a thing.
and that glorious day feels so far off
i know there will be so many more days 
where i'll cry after looking at the 
pictures of my sister.
or cry at the evilness of this world
or for the souls of so many people.
missing teaches you something.
it teaches you to love more freely,
help more willingly.
so i really mustn't t think of death
as an agony, 
a tragedy yes,
but God has been there. 
He's been working
all along and will be for many more years.
forever, He'll be by my side. 
and yours too.
just always remember that. xx


  1. Thanks Paige! You're so right it hard, it is painful, but all things work together for good to them that love God.

    1. Aww you welcome!!! Yess, truth. <3 <3

  2. I know just what you mean. Thank you for writing this--it's the most I've related to something in a long time! Every death makes one yearn for heaven that much more, doesn't it? And God's outpouring of grace is felt more deeply through the pain.
    Keep writing from your heart, Paige!

    1. Yeah, almost everyone has their own struggles. I'm glad to hear that..it's so nice to be able to relate with people!! <3 yesyesyes to that, I love your hearing thoughts. <3 <3
      Thanks, I will!!!

  3. Thank you for writing this, Paige. This is very powerful and beautiful.

    1. Sure thing. ;) Awww thank you so, so much!!!

  4. WOW, Paige. Thanks for writing this. =)
    Jaidyn Elise<3

  5. PAIGE - WOW WOW WOW WOW. God's using you - keeping fighting the good fight, keep crying and learning. Keep trusting Him. <3

    1. AW STOP YOUR MAKING ME MELT. yess, and i'm so excited too. xx
      <3 <3 <3

  6. So true!! <3 <3 <3

  7. wow. paige this is beyond beautiful.
    there's so much heart in these words. lovely <3 <3

  8. That was beautiful! You have wisdom way beyond your years.